http://danela1987.livejournal.com/ danela1987 - LiveJournal.com Wed, 02 Jul 2008 03:17:33 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com danela1987 14073579 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/69708645/14073579 http://danela1987.livejournal.com/ 70 100 http://danela1987.livejournal.com/919.html Wed, 02 Jul 2008 03:17:33 GMT http://danela1987.livejournal.com/919.html &nbsp;ok guys i had a question... so i havent had my period in a long time ( over 2 months)... and well im on vacation in this weird kind of camp and welll my period just came... i mean, i have really been trying not to eat much... ( less than 500 calories a day) but i've binged a couple of times... and well havent been able to weight myself... do you think i gained weight cuz i have my period... what do yoy think guys?? im worried... http://danela1987.livejournal.com/919.html public 0 http://danela1987.livejournal.com/607.html Fri, 28 Dec 2007 17:47:47 GMT http://danela1987.livejournal.com/607.html &nbsp;Stats<br />Height?: 5.4<br /><br />Weight?: 125lbs&nbsp;<br /><br />Lowest Weight?: 122lb<br /><br />Highest Weight?: 186lb<br /><br />What weight do you want to weigh?: 99 lbs.... under 100 lbs...&nbsp;<br /><br />What eating disorder do you have?: Anorexia<br /><br />In Depth<br /><br /><br />Do you throw up your food on occasion?: rarely... try 2 to at least... <br /><br />Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: yep... but no one specifically... <br /><br />Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport?: yep.. professional dancing lessons and gym... <br /><br />Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: welll when i was about 186 lbs they were like: that fat cow should go on died... but now it is like :oh my god how did she lost so much weight in 5 months... she must be anorexic... <br /><br />Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: yes, 4 days... but my family is controling me to much right now... so lately i haven't... <br /><br />Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: yep... <br /><br />Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: Most of the time.... but no one specifically... <br /><br />Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: not yet at least.... they r thinking about it...&nbsp;<br /><br />Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: Not yet... <br /><br />Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: i dont' wanna be anorexic.. but i jsut wanna be so badly under 100 lbs... <br /><br />Body Image Q's<br /><br />Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: yep... i just don't really see the difference between 186 lbs. and 125 lbs... i'm still the fat caw i used to see in the mirror... even though people r saying i look great right now... <br />What part of your body would you change?: Everything too thin ... my arms, my waist... oh yeah! and of course my shoulder ( who r just huge... )<br />On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?:&nbsp; 2 ( love my eyes... )<br /><br />Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: yep... most of the tim,e... at least partially... <br /><br />Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: when i realised how fat i was&nbsp;when i weighted 186 i had a suicidal attempt... though it was stoped by a teacher...&nbsp;&nbsp;right now i'm trying 2 not think about death anymore... <br />Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: yep... don't like doing it though... <br /><br /><br />Health/Food<br />Do you think you eat healthy enough?:&nbsp;not really... try to eat less than 400 cals a day... i'm not always strong enough to do so... <br /><br />Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: yep<br /><br />Fat grams?: Not really...<br /><br />Calories?: oh YEAH!!<br /><br />Are you often tired/fatigued?: occacionally... <br /><br />Do you feel more energised after eating food?: somethimes... <br /><br />Do you eat meat?: try not 2... but they force me 2... <br /><br />Do you eat your food in a certain way? Yes, i cut everything in small pieces...&nbsp;<br /><br />Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: not really...&nbsp;<br /><br />Have you ever thrown up blood?: yep... <br /><br />Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: sometimes<br /><br />Other Stuff<br /><br />Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?:&nbsp; it is... but in my cincumstances it is just parlty ... it is also the pressure a had to lose weight from my family and some friends... and the mirror... hate it... <br />What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: it is a place where people know they have an ED... and they support each other... i think other people shouldn't see it as a threat to anothers' life... <br />Do you have any other mental disorders? dont' think so... <br /><br />What's your favourite food to eat?: don't know... i'm kind of afraid of food... <br /><br />Favourite drink?: Water, tea...&nbsp;<br /><br />Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: yep... but i also mish to&nbsp;be thin... <br /><br />Do you want to recover?: deap inside me i do... http://danela1987.livejournal.com/607.html happy public 0