ok guys i had a question... so i havent had my period in a long time ( over 2 months)... and well im on vacation in this weird kind of camp and welll my period just came... i mean, i have really been trying not to eat much... ( less than 500 calories a day) but i've binged a couple of times... and well havent been able to weight myself... do you think i gained weight cuz i have my period... what do yoy think guys?? im worried...

 Stats
Height?: 5.4

Weight?: 125lbs 

Lowest Weight?: 122lb

Highest Weight?: 186lb

What weight do you want to weigh?: 99 lbs.... under 100 lbs... 

What eating disorder do you have?: Anorexia

In Depth


Do you throw up your food on occasion?: rarely... try 2 to at least...

Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: yep... but no one specifically...

Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport?: yep.. professional dancing lessons and gym...

Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: welll when i was about 186 lbs they were like: that fat cow should go on died... but now it is like :oh my god how did she lost so much weight in 5 months... she must be anorexic...

Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long?: yes, 4 days... but my family is controling me to much right now... so lately i haven't...

Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: yep...

Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: Most of the time.... but no one specifically...

Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: not yet at least.... they r thinking about it... 

Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: Not yet...

Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: i dont' wanna be anorexic.. but i jsut wanna be so badly under 100 lbs...

Body Image Q's

Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: yep... i just don't really see the difference between 186 lbs. and 125 lbs... i'm still the fat caw i used to see in the mirror... even though people r saying i look great right now...
What part of your body would you change?: Everything too thin ... my arms, my waist... oh yeah! and of course my shoulder ( who r just huge... )
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?:  2 ( love my eyes... )

Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: yep... most of the tim,e... at least partially...

Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: when i realised how fat i was when i weighted 186 i had a suicidal attempt... though it was stoped by a teacher...  right now i'm trying 2 not think about death anymore...
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: yep... don't like doing it though...


Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough?: not really... try to eat less than 400 cals a day... i'm not always strong enough to do so...

Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: yep

Fat grams?: Not really...

Calories?: oh YEAH!!

Are you often tired/fatigued?: occacionally...

Do you feel more energised after eating food?: somethimes...

Do you eat meat?: try not 2... but they force me 2...

Do you eat your food in a certain way? Yes, i cut everything in small pieces... 

Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: not really... 

Have you ever thrown up blood?: yep...

Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: sometimes

Other Stuff

Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?:  it is... but in my cincumstances it is just parlty ... it is also the pressure a had to lose weight from my family and some friends... and the mirror... hate it...
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: it is a place where people know they have an ED... and they support each other... i think other people shouldn't see it as a threat to anothers' life...
Do you have any other mental disorders? dont' think so...

What's your favourite food to eat?: don't know... i'm kind of afraid of food...

Favourite drink?: Water, tea... 

Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: yep... but i also mish to be thin...

Do you want to recover?: deap inside me i do...